my last entry September 27, 2008

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在 让我更寂寞

been 2 weeks. wat lies beyond? when will the crying stop? when will my heart stop having the sourish feeling ? when will it stop hurting that much ? got 4 months to forget the previous one. how bout this time round?

Mood swings , depression all in a day. of cus there are times in a day when i got so busy that i dun talk bout you or think bout you , i am the usual cheerful me. but most part of the day, i am not excited bout living my life at all . f1 is here. i am not the least excited bout it. even when i am in the vicinity yst , hearing the engines roaring , i feel nth. have i become so overwhelmed by my own emotions that i dun feel anymore ? or have i drained out all my emotions in exchange for ur indifference. i dunno . it hits me real hard. it’s something that i dun expect . i’m glad you have moved on. it’s still me thinking too much .

i have a fren who mentioned that she must be a dog in her previous life. cus of the character : faithful. i tink i must be her companion in my previous life too. haha~ simply comes when our previous owner dump us at spca cos they couldnt commit to take care of us anymore or other reasons that they might found a new love. our world revolve around our owner but owner has a life to lead that is more impt than us. will they even look back for the last time and see how pathetic we look and feel sorry when they hear us cry?

there’s too much to take for now. i am not coping well emotionally. sch started and i wished you are among the ones who encourage mi and care for me.

i’m leaving tis space for a greener pasture. too much depressing stuff over the past mths. this blog is getting veri dead and not alive anymore. i started tis blog in last year december period, christmas season ( the season of love and giving) . i’m glad i have faithful readers who are very encouraging. i’m pleasantly surprised by some of you as i didnt noe u guys read my blog. Thank you for all ur support. =)

I dont know when i will start blogging again but i’ll let my known faithful readers noe my new address if i decide to start one. It will be a cheerful post . i promise. i hope i wun be stuck for too long . 

ta da~ there goes my last entry . bye everyone

how true September 23, 2008

You are longing for a little love and tenderness. At present you are feeling very sensitive and need a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. You don’t need any further stresses, strains or arguments so take a deep breath and relax.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people – but try to stay out of the limelight. You’d like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren’t quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

Matters have not gone well for you. You are experiencing severe stress trying to guard yourself from further disappointments. It would seem that all of your hopes and dreams have not been realised and you are now beginning to doubt yourself. You no longer wish to be further advised by anyone and you insist on going it alone – to control your own destiny. Even though deep down you doubt whether things will get better in the future you have one consolation – and that is that they couldn’t possibly get worse. Unwilling to give up anything that you possess, you are looking for some sort of security as a protection against any further setback or loss of position and prestige. You are so negative that you tend to exaggerate your problems and refuse to accept any advice from so called well-meaning friends.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a ‘fantasy land’ but unfortunately ‘fantasy land’ is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

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September 23, 2008

for friends who are not aware of the news, pls stop buying products including milk, ice cream, yoghurt, confectionery such as chocolates, biscuits and sweets, as well as any other products containing milk from China as an ingredient for the time being.

To read the article, click on http://www.news.com.au/heraldsun/story/0,21985,24383414-663,00.html

life’s a stock market September 19, 2008

i realise life is a stock market. Full of uncertainities, ups and downs. there’s a lot of environmental factors tt we ourself cant control. we dunno what’s going to happen next. eg the recent big hoo ha ; American financial system that went down an avalanche and cause a shockwave to the stock market.  

There’s realli no one that we can blame for the things that has happened to us. we can blame god, we can blame the environment, we can blame the person tt brings u utmost misery but the ultimate person you should blame is yourself.

y yourself? Like i have said , although environmental factors isnt smth we can control, we got the chips in our hands. Chips are smth that give us a certain control over our life. If you do not invest any of ur chips at hand, it will jus stay tt amount and nv grow. if u invest too much or all of ur chips in a stock company that you thought is good but turns out to be a bad apple, you can breakdown, go bankrupt. you can blame the world for being unfair to u but the real reason is cus you are stupid.

that’s reality. =)

faith September 16, 2008

Faith is smth that gives us hope. Faith in people that we love could be our pillars in life. It doesnt waver, it continue standing strong n giving you support. But sometimes , sudden things like an earthquake can change and destroy everyting that you believe in .

I am going back to making a wish at 11.11 and i hope watever i wish for will cum true. =)

where is the good in goodbye? September 16, 2008

I deleted the previous 2 emotional post. I’m giving you a new chance to live your life right because for the fact that I see that we were truly once in love but things started to get one sided after that. I’m sparing you the agony for all the love you have ever showed. I hope you will be thankful for this favor. I never criticize or regret having you in my life. It could be a beautiful fairytale ending if not for the Saturday. You know what I am saying and I hope you will be guilty of not what you have done but what you have said on that very day. I will always remember the words that break my heart so much. What’s done is done and I feel sorry that things ended in an ugly way.

 

I threw away the stuff and letter you gave me and I’ve deleted every form of contact with you. It’s an end to everything. I’m happy that you left me and I wouldn’t want you to come into my life again. I’ve really learnt my lesson. I’ll walk down the road, loving myself even more.